October 2010
6 posts
My façade.
I put on a little façade. It seems to grow every fucking minute. For some reason, I like to pretend that I’m hot shit. Really really really fuckin’ hot shit. But… I’m not. Not even close to the extent where my vanity could possibly be warranted.
Along with my arrogance comes the usual attitude associated. In short, it seems like I’m a huge asshole to everybody. Well, at the very least,...
Freaking the fuck out.
Refer to title.
Questions?
I ask a lot of questions. I tell myself and everybody else that I just enjoy stroking my ego…
But really, I analyze things to try and conclude if there is actually any hope.
EDIT: “Hope” is actually an awful word to describe this. I prefer “possibility”.
Hope implies desperation.
College Apps.
Today, I end my vicious fucking cycle of procrastination.
I’m going to do it.
Me, too.
I had a “Suddenly Saturday”, too. I don’t know how I should feel about this.
What am I fucking doing?
I’m wasting my fucking life away. I come home, eat, sleep, and don’t do any of my homework until it’s after 10 PM.
My daily schedule:
Eat
TV
Sleep
Computer/Aim/Music/Youtube
Homework @ fucking 10 PM
I’m so scared of what’s going to happen when I’m at college… I don’t have a single ounce of organization in me. I don’t take notes. I...